thanks for everyone's advice!
the throttle issue has been resolved! I don't know how, but after tinkering with it, it's fixed!
and I can't use a dirtbike. . . I used most of my money on the XB9R, and I'm moving back to school on Tuesday
my plan of attack now is to take to the streets early in the morning when there is minimum traffic and just basically going around in 2nd gear until I feel comfortable actually being on a bike, to this day I've only logged in not even 2 hours, so hopefully with more time, the more comfortable I'll get
while at school I also plan on taking the rider's course. I need to learn/ride more and ease my nerves, because not going to lie, spilling it the other day has made me nervous [down]
thanks again everyone! it's people like you that makes me keep trying to learn!!